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December 17, 2007 Posted under: Personal by Caroline Middlebrook

When I wrote yesterday’s post I was feeling very angry, bitter and depressed. I was really wallowing in my misery and for some reason I expected that post to result in a ton of abuse. I was very surprised and quite overwhelmed by the response!

I have read all the comments and all I can say is thank-you for taking the time to comment. It’s been really nice to see such supportive comments not just on the blog but also via email and Twitter also. I’ve not responded the comments as I haven’t really known what to say but they have really helped me and I have appreciated them very much.

I said in the post that I didn’t care about anything and that nothing matters anymore. That’s not quite true. When I have a ‘bad day’ that’s how I feel but that’s just depression talking and it’s not a rational perspective on things. When I look at this blog, the projects I have on, and the emails that are sitting in my business inbox there are some things that do still seem very trivial - but not everything.

I do care about this blog. I believe that the Internet presents tremendous opportunity for the everyday person to make money online but I also think that the “make money online” niche has been brainwashed by too many gurus and I too have been brainwashed by some of that stuff. I hate long-form sales letters, I really hate them with a passion. I hate the idea of us marketers worming our way into social networks like Facebook. I hate the idea of selling an email course for hundreds or thousands of dollars.

So what I would like to do is make money online in a non-sleazy way and use this blog to show how I do it so that other people can follow along and do the same. The thing I love about the Internet is that these days it is so accessible. Even somebody on extremely limited means should be able to get online and start making a secondary income in their spare time. To many people, that could make a real difference.

If I can help somebody do that, then I’m doing something worthwhile. Of course I need to make a living too!

So what I need to do now, is re-examine my options. Figure out what’s worthwhile, what’s sleazy, what’s just not interesting and try to work on just those things that don’t make me feel like crawling back under the covers.

In addition to all the lovely comments and emails that I have received, there are two very special people that I would like to thank. The first is Peter Buick, who I met from the 30 Day Challenge and who has become a true friend in recent weeks. Peter has helped me see things in ways I could never have seen them on my own, and has made me question every limiting belief that I had. He has really helped me see how this situation can be a tremendous opportunity. Thank you Peter.

The second person I would like to thank is Dr Mani. I met him recently through this blog when he gave me lots of advice about my Twitter guide and making money in general. Today, in response to yesterday’s post he sent me a copy of a book he has written called “The Emotional Prism - How to be Happy When You’d Rather be Sad”. I’ve read the whole book, and it has been profound, humbling and very helpful. It is not a free book either so thank you very much Dr Mani.

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28 Comments:

Caroline,

I want you to know that the fearless way you are blogging without a net makes me feel like I can do brave things, too.

Love hurts. Time heals. Stay strong.

-Sally J.

P.S. I agree with you 100% about creepy internet marketing tactics. There’s gotta be a way to do this without “gaming the system” and deceiving people.

Mike Huang
December 17, 2007

You know that commenting is a very simple thing, but to deserve a comment is what you received. You deserve it!

-Mike

serge
December 17, 2007

Whatever works or gets the job done, right? Well, I don’t think so. People see through those (tricky) things and you have wisely done so too.
Bravo for being honest, this could be the turning point in your online career. When one door closes, another one opens. I am sure many opportunities will be coming your way. I know you will be wise to choose which ones will benefit you.

Joanne
December 17, 2007

Caroline,

I only recently started following you on twitter. I can’t even remember how I found you, but I have loved reading your blog posts and all the information that you have shared with me and others.

I didn’t notice your twitter from yesterday until today when I saw the “Thanks for all the messages of support”. Even though I don’t know you, I thought to myself “Oh no, what happened that she needs support?”. I then read your blog post.

I just wanted to send out additional support to you and say to you that I think you have tremendous balls! I know you’re hurting right now, but you still came out and put it all out there and you were honest. I don’t know many people who would have the courage to do that. I applaud you.

I think you’re a fabulous writer and I will continue to follow you whether you feel like blogging about making money or personal issues.

I am wishing you all the best and please know there are so many people who support you.

Hang in there, things always get shitty before they can get better, otherwise how would you know the difference?

Best -

Joanne

Ben Helps
December 17, 2007

Certainly agree with you re long sales letters - for me they’re on par with 419 scams.

Kitty
December 17, 2007

Caroline, you are an AMAZING inspiration to us all. Like Joanne, I’m not exactly sure where I found you but I think it was randomly clicking on Marco Richter’s list (and I only did about 2-3 clicks - yours was the one that stuck) - I hadn’t even heard of your twitter guide at that stage or any of your other fabulous content - I just loved your writing, your tone and your style from the very first post I read.

I’ve been involved in web stuff for a long time (had my first webpage back in ‘96) but I’ve only very recently made a consistent and concerted effort to try and turn it into an independent living (ie not going back to working for a web dev company) so I’m waking up to a world of affiliates and those lovely sales letters when all I want to do is create good useful websites.

But you know, your blog is a fresh breath of air amongst it all.

Good luck with your journey to examine your options, I hope that you will give us the privilege of keeping us part of it.

:-) Kitty

Sonia Simone
December 17, 2007

You know, “Internet marketing that won’t make you need a bath afterwards” isn’t such a bad niche. :)

I’m working on a project now that I’m calling “Greater Good Marketing” (I suspect the name is terrible, so I’m tweaking) about how small businesses can operate and market themselves in alignment with their deepest values, with what will make them happiest, and that will let them contribute to the greater good.

Marketing for Bleeding Hearts, in other words. :)

(Hmm, maybe I should change it to Bleeding Heart Marketing. That sounds a bit dire, though, doesn’t it?)

Anyway, I’m just rambling, but doing stuff that lines up with your heart isn’t just important because you want to be a good and happy person. It can also help you connect with other folks and help them do the same.

Long-winded way of saying, Go for it. :)

Novice SEO
December 17, 2007

Your post yesterday and today is the essence of blogging. Even though this is a “make money online” area, by showing your true self with all the emotions involved you have let us all know that you are human and that human beings have ups and downs. It also lets us know that as a business blog you are not some mindless robot writer cranking out posts.

You have probably done more good by doing this than anything else you have done… You have “humanized” your blog.

Keep yourself going and please do not hesitate to vent when you need too.

eric

Kevin Wilson
December 18, 2007

maybe we should start some sort of “Internet Marketing for Non-Sleazy People” group :-)

Carla
December 18, 2007

I’m delighted you’re feeling better. I don’t even know you and I was worried about you all day yesterday!

Emotional “breakdowns” are often emotional breakthroughs in disguise. It looks like you’re already seeing the truth of that in this situation. And so quickly too. Good for you. :-)

Also, I thought I was alone in hating those long sales letters. Yuck. I agree with Sonia about needing a bath after reading one. There has to be a better way.

It seems to me your blog will be taking a new and refreshed perspective on social media and internet marketing. I’m looking forward to it!

Yes, difficult things in life seem to wreck everything we know, but sometimes that’s good. It makes us refocus (perfect the way Carla said it above). Good for you for getting back on your feet, even if you stumble every once in a while. We’re all human; we all understand :)

Evan Hadkins
December 18, 2007

Funny marketing incident of the month: Rich Schefren saying people hate marketers and the way forward is to deliver real value. You know what the funny part is don’t you?: it all looks like classic marketing hype. (I do agree however that it is about delivering real value.)

Glad you’re feeling better today Caroline.

I love the proposals for a “non-sleazy internet marketing” group.

I’m really looking forward to your posts on making money in a non-sleazy way.

Hoping you continue to feel better.

Evan

Corinne Edwards
December 18, 2007

I just want to add that nobody - nobody - nobody - is worth your health and your life.

Everything is dead out here in the blogosphere so you have time to get it together.

We are all out there in the stores or on line trying to buy expensive things for no money.

Take your time. We will wait for you.

paradise5000
December 18, 2007

Good for you Carolyn I am glad to know that you are feeling better. In this life we need to be “fighters and not quitters” and if we are teachable we get to learn from our bad and good experiences which help us to build the right character that is going to help us to make thru life. Carolyn you will be in my prayers because I see that you have a large task at hand, but believe me it is going to pay off in the long run if you stay focus on doing the right thing and by what I can tell you are on the right track, take it from this 53 year old, I have been around the block and back and know that you get out of life what you put into it just don’t give up and know that the best is yet to come.

Dr.Mani
December 18, 2007

Caroline, thank you for the gracious words and your feedback on “The Emotion Prism”.

I know how that book must have resonated with you, because it was written when I was going through a particularly stressful period of my own life, and had to delve deep into a decade of experience interacting with others who have experienced deep and intense loss that’s hard to imagine - the suffering, and rarely death, of a child born with heart defects (congenital heart disease).

In my professional capacity, I have observed, discussed and learned from these real-life heroes of mine - parents of every child with a heart birth defect. They are my inspiration and motivation in everything I do, and “The Emotion Prism” - http://www.EmotionPrism.com - summarizes some basic concepts and mindsets these heroes used to go through life, regardless of the many potholes and land-mines scattered along their path.

I’m glad it helped give you some perspective, as it has hundreds of readers. Like I said before, time heals. It’s hard to trust in that trite phrase just now, but it’s true.

As for the cynicism you feel about the make money niche, I’ve experienced that too - and will send you a nice, long note about some things that have helped me deal with similar emotions as I stick with the niche :-)

Nice to see you sound a lot more cheerful. You really are the ‘honest blogger’ - and an example of what I blogged about yesterday, about how ‘Influence Follows Integrity’

All success
Dr.Mani

Bridget
December 18, 2007

Hi Caroline,

I don’t comment much; but, I read your blog regularly. I missed a few days and I am just reading your 2 most recent posts today.
I want to encourage you as well to keep taking steps toward your healing.
Your honesty, giving heart and good solid information is why I always come back to your blog.

I have a problem with those sales letters too! Big problem. But, I just assumed that’s how you do things. I look forward to sharing your experience of a different and non sleazy approach to making money online.

The kind of support that you have received means that you have a lot of love vibrations directed at you.
Something good has come from the internet and internet marketing.
I have a feeling this is just the beginning of good for you!
Silver lining indeed!

Do take care of yourself,
Bridget

Ric
December 18, 2007

Cheers, mate - glad you can see some sunshine today. Got a kick out of the earlier comment: “Internet marketing that won’t make you need a bath afterwards” - LMAO. Sounds like a niche worth filling …

Don’t be too surprised about the support … this is still a pretty nice community. And tomorrow (or whenever) when you get a bit down again, come back and talk to us.

Thomas
December 18, 2007

Hi Caroline, ive been reading your blog and others now for quite some time. I’ve been reading blogs for over 2 years now and have never posted a comment on anyones blog. This is my first time but i feel its necessary. All i want to say is this, when the darkness falls, the stars will shine. Keep shining beautiful everything will be OK. Also watch the video, If this video doesn’t put a few things in perspective and inspires you, let me know i have one more trick up my sleeve.
http://cjcphoto.com/can/

Caroline Middlebrook
December 18, 2007

Again, thank you to everybody for all these lovely comments, it’s a great thing to wake up to in the morning :-)

@Sonia, indeed that sounds like a great idea! Of course it’s hard to come up with a name that doesn’t sound cheesy!

@Evan, my thoughts exactly. The trouble is, that these days I go purely on gut instincts. I look at somebody or read something and I get a feeling about it - it’s either a good feeling or a bad feeling. I recently unsubscribed from Rich Schefren’s list as it just gave me bad feelings. I’m sure he’s not a bad guy, I just don’t feel like his aura resonates with me at the moment. I’ll be talking about that in a post I’m planning for later.

@Bridget, yes over the last few months I’ve got used to the way “things are done” in the IM niche and then I re-examined this stuff and thought “NO! it doesn’t have to be that way”. It’s that brainwashing I talked about…

@Thomas, wow that is an amazing story and video. Thanks ever so much for sharing. For anybody else reading this comment - click the link in Thomas’ comment. You might not want to watch it if you’re at work surrounded by your colleagues though - wait until you’re alone with a tissue box handy :)

Alan Hollis
December 18, 2007

Hijacking the comments a bit but I have to agree with Caroline, the story and video in Thomas’s comment is incredible, inspiring and just wow it’s little trinkets like this that slowly restore my faith in humanity!!

Simonne
December 18, 2007

I’m impressed. Every now and then I read your blog, and I was really impressed by your last two posts. I agree with you, those sales letters stink, and at a point in my making money online journey I realised I didn’t want to learn how to produce such horrible things.

Secondly: this blog belongs to you, it is not you who belong to the blog. You come first, so take care of yourself, no matter what.

Thirdly: if your partner was able to throw away all beautiful things you shared, then she didn’t deserve you. Sorrow is normal now, but things in life come and go, and time can do magic. You’ll be better, because you are strong and perfectly capable to look after yourself.

And please remember this: if you ever need a helping hand from a fellow blogger, don’t hesitate to ask for it. You have all the support from my side, and I’m sure I’m not the only one.

Hendry Lee
December 18, 2007

I read previous posts but didn’t leave comment because I don’t know what to say… but I can certainly resonate with the feeling. I guess we have been there in one way or another.

Personally, I don’t mind personal posts like these. I think that makes me realize there is a real person behind this blog.

Good to know that you are starting to feel better.

Empress
December 18, 2007

I just read what had happend. I’m sorry to hear that you’re hurting and sad and angry. No one wants that to happen.

But when it does, sometimes the support of strangers helps.

Take care of yourself. That is what is most important.

Olakunle Solomon Fatoye
December 18, 2007

1. Dearly Beloved Caroline:
2. Thanks for bouncing back in time.
3. It is not the number of times a person falls that matter, it is the number of times the person rises up! Fall seven times but just make sure you rise the eight time - SIMPLE.
4. And do you know why I keep emphasizing FB despite you said you do not like all those marketing tactics that has clouded the IM scene?
5. Because I spotted all these scenarios from there. I saw you enter some communities and I felt, no - something is not right here and has to be talked about.
6. Never knew you will be this brave and TRUE.
7. You may not know why I talk about you in all places where I can find to shout out about you, it is simple. TRUTH.
8. It is said that you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free. How free do you feel now? Trust much more than anyone can tell you.
9. If this goes through to you, then it would have clarified to you the reason to march on forward toward your goals REGARDLESS.
10. Do you know why it is always a challenge to get to the top? Because if you get there unprepared, the tendency of falling is high and many will fall with you.
11. All that just happened is to prepare you for greater assignments ahead.
12. One last advice at this point…
13. There is what is called the CAREER FULCRUM.
14. Your Life. Your Career. Your Job. These three create a balance but they do not mix. In this case, you are simply seeing how much impact your life can have on your career and profession. You surely will avoid this like a plague in the future. So some core discoveries have been made.
15. It is sure that you will never remain the same.
16. Always remember - YOU CAN REACH THE TOP!
17. No one will do that for you because the vacuum that each of us have up there can never be filled by someone else and you said something profound the other time which was this - YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO SELF-TERMINATE!
18. My prayers will continue to be with you and do not hesitate to ask for whatsoever you like to receive help, support and assistance on. That is all I personally do!
19. Count me in for the No-Sleazy-Sales Team.
20. The truth has to be said all the time to the 110th degree in the simplest form.
21. Remain blessed and a blessing and we shall communicate again soon if God is willing!
22. Warmest regards,
23. Olakunle Solomon Fatoye.

Don
December 18, 2007

You bring fresh insight into Internet Marketing as well as career switching in general. Don’t lose that passion.

I truly do look forward to you insights and wish you well in getting past your current hurdles.

By the way, thank you for your honesty. I was a little taken aback when you said that you were less than honest the past few weeks, especially since your honesty and openness are what I like reading about. Thanks for dropping the pretense.

In closing, I’ll agree with OSF - “The truth has to be said all the time to the 110th degree in the simplest form”.

Don

Kathy
December 20, 2007

Caroline:

Just catching up with your blog and I have to tell you first that your honesty is refreshing and while I can practically feel your pain radiating from my screen, it also makes me feel more connected to you and the human race in general (doesn’t often feel that way) to understand that other people live through the same load of crap that I do sometimes.

Secondly, just my advice to take good loving care of yourself no matter what that means. You have risen above the ranks of 30DC bloggers and you can do so again even if you need to take a lot of time off right now! Heal yourself, do it slowly and do it right. I don’t really know what that means, but it sounds good… Just know that others including myself care for you.

Kathy

Edward Pollard
December 20, 2007

Dear Caroline.

Thank you for sharing some personal stuff, I found a lot of it resonated very strongly with me and I appreciate not just the time it took to share but the energy required to get through what you’ve gotten through.

I don’t know you, but I do think you are an extremely neat person. I wish I could offer more than Blah blah it gets better blah blah you know exactly what I’d type here isn’t it so cliche blah blah blah blah ;-)

The best I can do is *SINCERE EPIC HUGS*.

Take care and keep on writing,

Edward

marti garaughty
December 20, 2007

Hi Caroline, just a few qucik words of support. I hope you get thru these rough days and come out the other end in one piece.

I have a very hectic life but recently became a reader of your blog because of the real, human, down to earth way in which you write. We could all learn a lot from you. Be well & happy holidays…


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